{"id":2206,"date":"2017-10-05T09:00:48","date_gmt":"2017-10-05T09:00:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/?p=2206"},"modified":"2017-10-04T20:19:37","modified_gmt":"2017-10-04T20:19:37","slug":"its-my-birthday-and-i-can-cry-if-i-want-to","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/2017\/10\/05\/its-my-birthday-and-i-can-cry-if-i-want-to\/","title":{"rendered":"It&#8217;s my birthday and I can cry if I want to"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Well, it happened. I\u2019ve reached another decade of life. Three. Zero. It crept up on me and now it\u2019s here. I\u2019ve been thinking a lot about this recently, how I approach decision-making for the future, the limits of possibility, my relationships, career, biological clock\u2026 the list goes on. It\u2019s been easy, especially for me, to get caught up in anxiety. I seem to obsess about \u201cmy place\u201d in the world and what it means to be successful and happy.<\/span><\/p><p>&nbsp;<\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">This led up to yesterday, when I looked at some of my baby photos. Other than the novelty of seeing myself and my family from 30 years ago, their youthful complexion, my father\u2019s terrible fashion sense, something else was apparent: it\u2019s not all about me. It\u2019s humbling to see these images of your family in a completely different context, new parents, scared and still trying to figure it out. I have no memory of these events, but here they are, my family smiling and laughing.<\/span><\/p><p>&nbsp;<\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Another year, another decade&#8230;<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m turning 30 and I&#8217;m freaking out a little bit.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":28,"featured_media":2207,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2206","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-incidentals","entry-card--landscape"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/moshed_2017-9-4_16.17.55.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p86O3z-zA","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2206","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/28"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2206"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2206\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2208,"href":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2206\/revisions\/2208"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2207"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2206"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2206"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/academics.design.ncsu.edu\/yesand\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2206"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}